Recap of July 20 through August 6

Thought I would keep myself busy by creating a b-log I might or might not share this with anyone.

Timeline :

July: 20 - Return from trip from Turkey, Ironman Austria this year has been the strongest/healthiest I have felt in years ( although lack of hill training almost cost me the race)

July: 25 - Yearly mammo which I had pushed 1 month ahead cause I did not want any
clouds lingering over my Race and trip ( smart move ! )

I usually get an ultrasound along with my yearly mammo cause my breasts are extremely dense(as stated in previous reports) this year as I was waiting to be released in the Womens Radiology center waiting room after my ultrasound a different nurse came in and kindly re-invited me to take ' additional mammo images' Ooppsss ! I thought this does not sound good.

I went in to the 'over' friendly mammo expert who was ' extra' nice to me now. Said that the radiologist JUST wanted to take a look at couple of additional images of my right breast.

Huh ? Right ? I had a problem and a cyst aspiration biopsy on the left 2 years ago.

After getting into the boob-panini machine again this time at a different angle, I was ushered to the other waiting room.

Then...

They said too politely nothing was wrong but they wanted additional sonograms and put me in a room and made me wait for what seemed forever. It was 72 degrees ( I know cause I tried to mess with the thermostat) no magazines I was pacing there forever biting my nails thinking ' oh shit DID hit the fan'

Finally the sono girl came and tried to find what the doc was asking for but she was baffled and could not find it. So she goes again... and comes back 10 minutes later with the 'sono-queen' who finds it immediately and scuffs at the girl and leaves.

I am sent back to the waiting room again, this time really scared they ask me to get dressed and wait.

The 'too polite- ice queen' nurse appears and says that the Radiologist wants to talk to me. I said ok this IS it..

And I started the bargaining phase where I was saying ' if this is nothing I swear I will do this ' -- I cant say what I was going to do cause it was not nice..

Passing through a corridor which reminded me of the corridor in Jack Nicholson's 'Shining' we headed towards the windowless dark inn of the Master of Bad News --ok I know it is not nice to call him, it is his job and actually he might be saving me --- and he showed several non-sexy pictures of my boobs highlighting on the hurricane pattern that he did not like and how that did not exist there 12-13 months ago.

Me, still being in denial go 'hmm ok what could THAT be now ? .

He goes ' Well cancer.. ' and stops. So I elaborate..' Oh what ELSE could it possibly be ? '

At that point he showed considerable effort to come up with some weird stuff like 'radiation scars.. blah blah ' but it was so obvious that he was just making it up.

Last hope I asked what my BIRAD rating was. He said 4 possibly a 5.

That answered all of the questions that I had.

Although I do believe in 'The Secret' and tried to talk myself that it probably is something harmless.. could I have hit myself with the oars while rowing ? Or what about I banged it during swimming or on the bike ??? .. I kind of knew that the news was bad.

Those 2 days were bad.

July 27: Scheduled an Appointment for a Core Biopsy with Dr. Danelle Chambers out of MD Anderson Cancer Center at ORMC. Dr. chambers had operated on a collegue of mine and she was very happy with her.

July 28 : Ferit had to come back from his vacation early, called on Duty !

August 1: Core Biopsy done by Dr. Chambers she is a really nice doctor very outspoken but also has good bedside manners. Dr. Chambers thinks that the biopsy results will not come out favorable.

August 3: After what seems like an eternal day, got a phone call from Dr. Chambers that I had Infiltrating Lobular carcinoma. She thinks that it is Stage 1 or maybe early stage 2 but can't tell for sure before the operation.

Dr. Chambers said that she would get the ball rolling for oncologist and mri visits but she would be out of town next week. The MRI has to be done on the 7-10 days of ones cycle so can not be done this week.

Weekend: I liked the weekend, all the doctor offices/hospitals are closed so I actually can not do anything, so had a great time. Went to Nuge's for a delicious Manti Party, went to Blue Martini with Zeren and Peter on Friday. Did a bit of trail running on Saturday and waddled in the Wekiwa Spring since I was not supposed to swim ( biopsy site still not healed).
Then we attented a very Interesting Kundalini Yoga Healing session at The Kundalini Yoga Center at Altamonte Springs. We did not know it was goingto be that long and I overheard Ferit chanting the mantra as ' Starbucks Frappuchino,Starbucks Frappuchino ,Starbucks Frappuchino '
Went for a short 18 mile ride with Penny around her neighborhood being on my bike felt really good.

I felt spectacular at the end of the weekend ready to tackle anything that comes my way.