Crazy Tuesday

I definitely overdid it. Somehow when I returned to work at the office I suddenly thought that I could do everything that I used to do immediately.. so I gave the spinning class at 5:45 in the morning, stopped by another gym to talk to a personal trainer, went to work, went to the tire store ( got 2 nails in 2 different tires yesterday )had lunch with a friend while waiting for the new tires, went back to work, drove 20 miles to pick up a friend to go to a Kundalini Yoga session which was a further 15 miles away. Did 1.5 hour K yoga, then went to the friends house to dinner.. then came home.. but I was literally falling asleep at the red lights .. for the first time in months I was able to get some sleep without even any sleep aids. Wednesday I still was feeling the fatigue.. that was stupid of me.

Going back to work really helped my mood, the people who did not know what I went through just thought I was working from home. They complimented on my new hair color (a redhead !) I guess Iwas pretty good in camouflaging that I did not have any eyelashes and only a couple of strands of eyebrows. I put the others who were 'avoiding eye contact with me' at ease by starting out a conversation from where we left never mentioning anything about my treatments unless they asked.. that seemed to work pretty well.

after having 3 days in the office here is how it went.

There were 3 types of collegues:

1 - Did not have a clue I was sick just thought that I had colored my hair red(I had long brown hair, got a red wig).. who were shocked when I told them..

2 - Some were giving me big hugs.. taking me to lunch, bringing me coffee.. really sweet.

3 - Some that were avoiding looking at my eyes,having a 'fear in their eyes' so I had to be proactive for these.

- for those who I wanted to maintain a friendship I approached them smiling and started up a conversation about the things that we used to talk about before my dx.. that seemed to loosen them up and they started talking about stuff.. and then eventually - although very shyly - approached and asked about my treatments.. I gave them the minimum info as those are the type which really do not know how to handle this. I was able to see the relief in their eyes.. cause they were just clueless on how to interact with me.

-For those that I did not really care I did not bother doing anything.

Sooooo it was not that bad !! Other than the first 10 hour wig wearing day wanted me to rip it off my head !