Additional drawings for conflict resolution

Well since my main conflict at this point is whether to get additional surgery and/or rads I draw 2 pictures one myself getting surgery the other radiation.
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Then I went ahead and drew with my eyes closed (Ferit said that my drawings were so bad that my eyes closed ones were almost the same as the ones that I made with my eyes open ! ), choosing the colors blindly also..




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The radiation one is like being abducted by an alien ship(according to Ferit) both seem ok.. although the stuff taken out is bright colors not yucky stuff hard to tell none are talking to me yet.