First of : hair(fuzz) trim, PS visit, Oncologist visit

The Plastic surgeon visit was as I expected, the band that was there with the expander was still there with the implant pushing it up making that side tight/uncomfortable and uneven. He said that he did not see anything when he went in for the exchange and he would do a corrective action (that needed to be done to complete the reconstruction) 5-6 weeks after radiation.
Overall the reconstruction turned out ok(I will give it a 6 out of 10 in its current state and if the band is fixed later might bump the grade up to maybe a 7+ not more) My Plastic surgeon did not use the brand that I heard that was really good (Mentor) but used another one. Still can not complain that much, I just am not as comfortable as I thought I would be.

After looking in the mirror and getting annoyed with the baby fuzz(I have heard some bc gals actually savoring the little duck hair but I certainly am not one of them) asked Ferit to buzz it off, not a complete shave, but as much needed to get rid of the baby feather and leave hair stubs. It certainly looks a lot better/healthier.
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The oncologist said 'hmmm what are you doing here I was expecting you after radiation ?' They took blood (ouch since I had my port out they had to do it the regular way) and sent me off asking me to come back in 12 weeks. When I asked whether any scans will be performed to monitor, he said if he wanted he could do a 'panic' scan, but from what I am reading there is actually not that much point in doing any blood/scan monitoring unless there are physical symptoms. They needlessly panic the patient because they could give signs that are totally unrelated to the bc. My tumor markers have been going all around the place which I was told was normal when one is going through chemo and were not necessarily an indication of anything going wrong.
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Another lesson for me to let go I guess.
My attitude going forwards will be 'Whatever' and move on.
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He also shot down any hopes of natural remedies for the hot flashes that wake me up every night 5-6 times.
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I know that if I go on Effexor an antidepressant that would take care of the hotflashes but I do not want to take medication, will try to see whether I can somehow manage through them.
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Focusing at work is getting to be challenging, interesting because I thought that as I neared the end of treatment I would feel more comfortable relaxed, not being monitored carefully is making me feel like walking on a tight rope with no safety net
urghh...
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Friday night went out to celebrate N's birthday and went to Luma on the Park, had a great time, although it is getting challenging to find clothes that I can squeeze myself into something has to be done re: this weight gain. And wearing a wig is getting really old, can't wait till I have a boy cut lenght hair.
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Saturday went to the Kundalini Yoga that I have not attended for awhile, it was a perfect day. The studio is overlooking a garden with large trees, it was raining outside.
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I am looking into supplementing my treatment with Dr. Richard Schulze's system, but it seems a bit intense might tone it down a bit and implement some parts if I can.
There is also Johanna Budwig's flaxseed oil and cottage cheese regimen which I am debating on, as flaxseed supplements are a controvertial topic for hormone positive bc's. Found a reputable research that was stating that flaxseed indeed resulted in tumor shrinking, but the study was done with about 40 gals I think.
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As our wedding anniversary present we ordered ourself a Juicer (omega 8005) will also change my nutrition to include those regimens.